I have learnt not to run down corridors
Wearing boots that could crush the ground
If I only stamped harder, but instead to tiptoe
Through the hallways, all bare feet and whispers
And that will bring me, ever so surely, to you.

I have learnt that while two plus two
Most certainly equals four
There are so many outcomes to the things that I've done
And if I only had a crystal ball, I would smash it against the wall
Because half the fun is in the surprise.

I have learnt not to let my guard down
When walking through a trench
And all the soldiers of wars gone by
Are making sexual innuendos and looking up my dress,
But to tell them that I do not need their freelove
Because I have something so much more rewarding
And if they even knew its secret, they would not want my body,
They would yearn for a feeling that made my wandering eyes
Stay still and fixated. Fixated on one emotion that was beautiful
And terrifying and devastating and mortifying all at the same time.

I have learnt that 'Ask and ye shall receive' has never been more true,
Because I asked you if you meant it and I got the right answer.

I am learning slowly that I'm getting what I need
And the delicate feeling of your hand through my hair
Is so much stronger than a punch in the face,
Given to me from a person whom love stopped meaning anything to
And it was not a fist but a word that hit me,
But you've bandaged the bruises and I'm learning,
Everyday,
Not
To
Fall